MY STORY
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I started out right where you are…
I won’t act like I have it all together. I’m not an influencer making millions. I don’t even have an Instagram for my business yet. I’m working a full-time job, giving 40 hours a week, wondering if i’ll ever pay off my $60,ooo in debt.
It wasn’t until recently that I realized perfectionism was the only thing holding me back. Atop all the mentors, books, cold plunges, you name it, that i’ve desperately poured myself into over the last few years, I think I finally scrolled past enough quotes and successful not perfect women. Multiple failed business attempts later, I came across a Pinterest class and for the first time ever, the idea felt truly sustainable. The last thing I wanted to do was start another project to soon quit whenever I felt like it wasn’t my exactly perfect God-given calling.
I always knew there was more to life than requesting PTO just to spend a little more time with my family. It’s taken me over a decade to understand that it’s not my fault. That’s the way our society is. But you still feel like a failure for not fitting in with the norm, your internal dialogue is a broken record from hell, and you subconsciously self-sabotage every business you start because deep down… you just want people to love you.
Let’s rewind to where it all began.
At the end of 2020, I hit probably the lowest low of my life. The man I saw myself marrying left me. I never felt a pain like that. And guess what, I still had to go to work just like everyone else, because what I figured out the hard way was your bank account doesn’t care if you’re sad…
I was working for an interior design firm, as you can kinda tell in the photo aside from my complete disregard for presenting any sort of professional appearance.
Super on brand for me, we had a full furniture install that week while I spent my nights moving all my stuff out of our apartment. It was brutal.
My biggest fear came true & I was living my actual nightmare.
But you know what’s so wild to me? This turned out to be the most life-changing experience of my life.
I went from losing everything, to an intentionally crafted life that I love.
STARTED WITH NOTHING BUT A VISION BOARD
Shout to my mom for reminding me i’m allowed to ask for help. What a concept. I had a 2019 Jeep Wrangler, my entire life in a storage unit, absolutely no money, and I signed up for an intensive six months of self-transformation training… I had no business getting myself into more debt.
I think I even borrowed the money from my mom to pay for it, keep in mind I was 25 years old. I thought I would be happily married by then, not starting from scratch and asking my mom for money.
I remember when it was really bad, I would try to make decisions throughout the day and I would just freeze… Like multiple times a day with very simple tasks. I lost all connection to the version of my days before. It felt like my internal compass was gone and now there were 500 options for everything.
That’s when I spiraled. I didn’t know who or what to trust, and social media made it SO much worse.
When you experience heartbreak like that, you become pretty much desperate. Things that scared you before seem a lot less scary because you’ve already felt the deepest pain. I was suddenly driven to finally be in control of what my life could look like.
I READ THESE INCANTATIONS OUT LOUD IN THE MORNING TO GET MYSELF OUT OF BED
My Godsister scribbled on some notebook paper. She swore that these affirmations had changed her life and they would change mine too.
“Any decision is better than none, just do something.”
I booked a one-way flight across the country and found a job in two days.
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A decision that lit my fire.
While searching for the meaning of life, I found myself in another relationship. Really good combination I know. Anyway long story short, I got cheated on.
This one made me even more desperate. I thought I had achieved at least some version of peace, but something about that chapter of my life ending launched me into a deep curiosity. I realized that for years I had been searching for real passion, something that even when it got tough I would stick with. Then I realized, I never even chose Arizona!
I could go anywhere I want.
I spent three months in North Carolina. I found strength in me I didn’t know I had. But I missed my family… Ultimately I chose my family over all the others pros and cons. Now that I’m back in Arizona, I love it so much more, and now I actually have space in my mind to focus on my future.
NOW HERE WE ARE
FOUR YEARS LATER
I can breathe again.
And I am devoted to showing you how to replicate my strategies and design your future, without waiting for life to hit you in the face.